I’m still standing.

Play it.

HELLO ALL.

I have successfully passed my Grade 5 piano exams. Both practical and theory of music.

I recalled, it was a tough time I had to go through. I was struggling with Law Asia mooting because I’ve let a misunderstanding get to me; and after that playing horribly for my piano exam, and as if I didn’t screw up enough, I screwed the Tchaikovsky piece at the piano concert as well. That was lowest moments of my life this year.

I felt like a failure, and everything that could go wrong went wrong, one after another. I was at the edge of giving up, even wanting to just quit playing for a concert and not continuing my piano exams. I felt like I couldn’t take any more blows.

But I guess He thought differently.

I was certain He whispered in my heart when I was worshipping in church. I stood there feeling battered, with a thirsty heart was waiting to be flooded. Then He said I will never put you through something you cannot handle.

And sure enough, through all this I have become a better person. A stronger person.

After some words of encouragement from my dad, telling me not to give up, talking about Thomas Edison, I stepped out of all the emotions that weighed me down and stood up again. I simply chose not to care about the mistakes I made and worked hard for the next important thing – my piano theory exam.

I chose not to allow my past affect the future in which I have control of at that time. I did countless past year Theory of Music papers, yes even on the bumpy bus and monorail to Chooi & Co for the attachment (because I was working 8.30am-5.30pm and having piano classes at night), went to my piano teacher’s house and made sure I was sure and confident I knew what that was needed to know before the theory exam the next day.

Yes, it sounds easy being able to do that. But just imagine you feel like you did your best and still things didn’t turn out the way it should be. And you feel like you’ve failed your family, teachers, and yourself. I felt really lousy. And from feeling the worst kind of degree of awfulness, you have to tell yourself to forget about that feeling and move forward. Channeling all the thought from being emotional to thinking about how to pass my theory exam and being positive about it at the same time. Not very easy, folks. But I did it.

And I’m done with Grade 5 of theory with a Merit. (I took the Grade 2 last year and skipped to Grade 5 this year)

The summer break I had after Year 1 and before Year 2 started really did shape me. Other than learning from the internships I did and the experience mooting, the piano exams I did and passed (and juggling all of that at the same time), I’ve learnt so much more from the adversaries I had to overcome. The things textbooks or school would never teach.

I most definitely have grown alot during the four months of my summer break.

And I have You to thank for.

And  above all this I’ve weathered, you have no idea how amazing it is to be able to say

I did it.

I’m still standing.

Two things you can take from my story.

1) Always always always put God first. Then things will be easier. Because I recalled, during that period of hurricane I been through, I was trying to do everything with my own strength when it should be His strength I should be turning to.

2) Never ever ever give up.

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