Archive for January, 2011

Silent screams.

Posted in In a minor key. with tags , on January 25, 2011 by Vivian K

I wish I had an older brother.

Or maybe an older person I look up to and confide in.

I don’t ask for many things in life.

Simple things is all it takes to put that smile on my face.

My heart, abandoned.

Posted in Czerny. with tags , , , , on January 22, 2011 by Vivian K

I realised this is the year I have to learn how to trust the Lord and not depend on my own strength.

I don’t know how am I going to pass my Year 2 of law with flying colours. I don’t know how am I going to pass my Grade 6 piano exams. I don’t know who is going to care for my dog when I leave for UK. I don’t know how are my parents going to support me financially when I’m in UK.

I sure don’t know alot of things. I don’t even know how to trust God sometimes.

I guess I gotta start learning how to surrender.

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and He will make your paths straight.

I juggle for a living.

Posted in Chromatic., Scales. with tags , , , , on January 19, 2011 by Vivian K

Tomorrow would be another hectic day like any other.

0830 hours: Wake up early to shower my dog.

1100 hours: Drive to University to return my law books.

1200 hours: Lunch with a friend.

0100 hours: Meeting at service center to discuss on election plans.

1600 hours: Go for piano lessons.

1900 hours: Dinner with family and their clients.

That pretty sums up what I am currently doing with my life. I have to learn to apportion time between Uni work, piano practice, and volunteer work and simultaneously make time for my family, friends and taking care of my dog.

Not easy juggling them, but key is to find meaning in doing all of it.

 

Why am I pursuing law?

Posted in Chord progressions., Czerny., In a major key., In a minor key. with tags , , , , , , on January 17, 2011 by Vivian K

Some days, being a law student drives me up the wall. Doing very dry and rigid things when I could be out shopping, dancing, playing the piano or reading other books that are non related. I constantly feel tired because I would only get an average amount of sleep of 4 hours. I struggle to finish my work and responsibilities as a law student.

Then it just occurred to me that I would most probably have this routine for the rest of my life when I graduate and work as a lawyer. Maybe even worse, because I wouldn’t have school holidays anymore. I’d be a workaholic in a tiny corner of the office till 2am and constantly overdosing on caffeine to keep myself going. My parents always say, work hard as a student for a little while, and it will be worthwhile for the rest of your life. True that. But the working hard does not stop after graduation.

Naturally, I did ask myself, why am I doing this? What am I getting myself into?

Then I realised, this is what I have always wanted to do. I love the challenge. And I wouldn’t be happier at all if I were in another course. I do know deep down I am called to read law and to pursue a career that is law related.

Many times we can be so weary and tired of doing our best, and sometimes we never know if its ever good enough.

But one thing’s for sure. I know I didn’t put myself through this whirlwind for nothing. I know I’ll be using my law degree not just to sit behind a desk without purpose, but for a greater purpose.

And that alone drives me to be better than my best.

Inspired by The Sound Of Music.

Posted in Chord progressions., In a major key. with tags , , on January 16, 2011 by Vivian K

I’ll do better than my best
I have confidence they’ll put me to the test
But I’ll make them see I have confidence in me

7 things you learn when you spend time with God.

Posted in Czerny., Staccato. with tags , , , on January 14, 2011 by Vivian K

1. Faith does not come with the absence of fear.

2. Proverbs 3:9 Honour the Lord with your wealth. And wealth can mean all that you have now; like time and energy.

3. You can only love God more by allowing him to love you more first.

4. Don’t try and help God out with your human strength. Let God be God.

5. Don’t be too quick to jump into deciding things. Always put God first above everything else.

6. Joshua 1:7 Do not look to the right or left but be careful to obey God’s laws. And you will prosper in everything you do.

7. Surrender everything to God. Because thats the only thing thats left to be done in our lives.

So what?

Posted in Chord progressions., Staccato. with tags , on January 10, 2011 by Vivian K

Keep moving

forward.

“Things which matter most must never be at the mercy of things which matter least.” – Goethe