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Posted in In a minor key. with tags on April 28, 2012 by Vivian K

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Carry Your Name.

Posted in Chord progressions. with tags , , on April 27, 2012 by Vivian K

Psalms 139:24

Posted in In a minor key., Scales. with tags , , , , , on April 26, 2012 by Vivian K

James 1:19-20 19 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20 because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.

Proverbs 12:18 Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.

The bible is right. Anger be destructive. The tongue can be powerful.

The many times you have offended and hurt me, I did not retaliate. But patience has its bounds. Yet I try, I still do. Even when I’m at my lowest. Even when you give me the impression you want nothing more than being an acquaintance. Not even a friend. That is your decision.

Do not mistake my silence for ignorance,

my calmness for acceptance,

and my kindness for weakness.

Because there were many opportunities you dangled before me where I could have been really honest about your attitude with you. But I choose not to say or do anything in return because I refuse to be shallow and childish. I refuse to drag myself down in anger by expressing it. I refuse to retaliate and be murderous with my words because I know that will hurt you. Above all, after sobbing my disappointments away, I chose to put aside all the ill feelings and do exactly the opposite instead. I have chosen to love you instead.

Trust me, I can see past all your smiles and small talk and see you are hurting inside. I can see that you are insecurities through your eyes. But why? I do not understand. You are a child of God. You are so precious. Why look to the world and the things of the world for recognition?

You may not see the internal battles and inner struggles I put myself through to love you. And I say this with all sincerity and humility. I do not boast in myself, but I boast in the Lord. I boast about how He has brought me through.

Loving someone that isn’t really your favourite person in the world can be tough. But I choose to. Not an obligation. It is a choice. I will continue to be kind towards you. Because of His love that has been engraved in my heart. Because I have understood the true meaning of God’s love and how real it is in my life. I go down on my knees and plead to God for abounding grace, patience and perseverance to love you. I have always been praying for you. I don’t want to give up. Because God hasn’t given up on you. Simple as that.

I have been through much. God has placed difficult people in my life and how He has shown so much grace and mercy upon them. And upon a sinner like me. I cannot help but turn towards that direction. But I am not perfect yet. I still fail at the department of loving difficult people. That God wants to deal with me, through you.

I can be very human sometimes. So forgive me if I have been offensive. But know that I am trying and it is not easy. But my decision remains. I have chosen to love you.

Ps. Hey readers, if you’ve noticed, I don’t usually blog about negative feelings because there was a point of time in my life where I decided to do things that are attached to a purpose. Why bitch fit like loud clanging cymbals. Why allow the devil to feed into my thoughts? So every blog entry has not been intended for myself, but for you. To inspire you in the little ways I can. To encourage you in the Lord. But today, I have realised that the negative that I go through can serve as a source of encouragement too. We all face giants in our lives. We might be small and unsure about how God can use someone ordinary like us. But let us rise up. You may not be able. But He is able. And if a sinner like me can choose to love, surely you can too.

1 Corinthians 13:1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

Psalms 139:24 See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

The day I would be able to love You with an unsinning heart.

Posted in In a major key., Scales. with tags , on April 12, 2012 by Vivian K

When I stand before Your throne
Dressed in glory not my own
What a joy I’ll sing of on that day
No more tears or broken dreams
Forgotten is the minor key
Everything as it was meant to be

And we will worship, worship
Forever in Your presence we will sing
We will worship, worship You
An endless hallelujah to the King

I will see You as You are
Love You with unsinning heart
And see how much You paid to bring me home
Not till then, Lord, shall I know
Not till then, how much I owe
Everything I am before Your throne

And we will worship, worship
Forever in Your presence we will sing
We will worship, worship You
An endless hallelujah to the King

No more tears, no more shame
No more sin and sorrow ever known again
No more fears, no more pain
We will see You face to face
See You face to face

And we will worship, worship
Forever in Your presence we will sing
We will worship, worship You
An endless hallelujah to the King

An endless hallelujah to the King
We’ll sing
An endless hallelujah to the King

That’s what faith can do.

Posted in Czerny. with tags , , , on April 8, 2012 by Vivian K

A reminder that we should not take our faith for granted.

And about how the many out there is yet to hear about the Lord.

When God ran.

Posted in Hanons. with tags , , , , , on April 7, 2012 by Vivian K

We’re so undeserving of His amazing and unconditional love.

And my prayer this Easter is that the people around me will come to know this love for them as well.

It is not the choices you make, but the choice He made to die on the cross for you; that defines who you are. You are a child of God.

1 Cor 13;13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Let us not lose the wonder of the cross.

Posted in Sonatinas. with tags , , on April 6, 2012 by Vivian K

Let us remember the reason why He chose the cross. Because He could not bear the thought of us perishing. Because He could not help but love you and me.